Monday, February 25, 2008

~ Rest In Peace Ammar ~

Number five was his favorite.. He thought he still has time.. Dreamt of his own house & pictured his future wife.. He had the strongest sense of humor ever.. Just looking at him would lift your spirit & bring it out from wherever it was.. He'd shake the bus with his funny imitations & the kids loved him & always wanted to be just like him.. He loved soccer & wished to be one of its stars.. He loved his one & only brother like no other did.. He was & still the only Ammar that I've ever met...
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He was always the best one to turn to.. He understood me & was there for me, just like my own brother.. He was the young man that any mother would be proud to have...
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And now he's no longer here.. God willed for him to leave our world & move on to the next.. I ask you all to please please please pray for Ammar & ask Allah to grant him mercy & put him amongst the forgiven ones...
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The minute his blood stopped flowing in his veins, my world changed.. Forever...
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This is my wake up call.. I believe it's time now to start a new clean page & ask Allah to forgive my past & keep me remembering His presence...
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I wonder if he's passed the BIG test.. We sat for a lotta exams together, but nothing like the one he's having now...
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Rabinna yer7amo...
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Abdullah (Ammar's brother) & Ammar..

Ammar is on the right side...

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Allah yer7amo,

I remember when we graduated from school and you always used to ask about him and i could tell you really cared about him deep in your heart. I vividly recall the smile on your face whenever a person would bring up his name, you guys were close friends, I just experienced this from the outside looking in since i have only known you, as well as many of our classmates for only a year. But it was touching to see the care that everyone had and the importance of one another even after high school. May his soul rest in peace and Insh'Allah Allah will make the grieving easier on all of us, and his family.
What an amazing tribute Alaa', I'm sure he will greatly appreciate this, just look up and take a glimpse of how high the sky is. Amar is somewhere high high above.

sara said...

sis.. nothing i could say or do that could bring him back.. But I have a few words that will maybe somehow give you any kinda comfort..

habebty sis,
Rabinna Raheem khaaaaaaaaaaaales.. Aktar than we can imagine.. Ammar going back to where he came from is such a beautiful thing.. It wasn't written for him to get married.. It wasn't written for him to have kids.. It wasn't written for him to grow older.. It wasn't written for him to have more impact on our world.. That was it.. That was Ammar's role.. It stopped yesterday..

Well, it didn't, yesterday it was stronger than before.. And today it's stronger than yesterday.. Hundreds of souls are in shock.. Why did God do it? Why Ammar? That's for reasons that only God know..

I'm in so much pain... And your pain is deeper.. But what will it bring us? Most importantly what will it bring him?

They say what doesn't kill you, will only make you stronger.. Let it make you stronger.. Remember him & pray.. Pray for him & for you..

He's our angel.. May he be in a better place.. YA RAB, please, better place..

Let's be stronger & remember sis, God loves him more than you do.. More than his own mother.. Rabinna created him.. Rabinna was closer to him than his own veins..

That was it for Ammar.. Hope he did well in his test.. And hope we do too..

Ya Rab amoot ableeko..

*sigh*

I can't think anymore.. I'm so worn out.. My heart is worn out.. I used to look at people losing loved ones & doubted it happening to me.. Sis, Rabinna is talking to us.. We gotta hear our call..

Again, nothing I could do, except to hug you & weep along..

Let's never forget him.. The kind young soul..

I love you sis.. Rabinna yekhaleeky leya we yekhalilna our loved ones.. AMEEEEEEEEEEEEEN :')

Yes, it's a :') not a :'( ..

We will do it & meet him in a better place inshaAllah.. And ride in better busses.. And see prettier kids.. And sing nice songs.. Nice everlasting songs..

Up there.. Where the soul longs to be.. I mean, look at us.. The moment we sleep, our souls leave..

We don't belong here ya rohy.. We don't..

I LOVE YOU..

ILYKYS

ILYKKYS

xxoooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoo

I'm always here for you.. And if my time comes, know that I'll be waiting for you inshaAllah..

We'll all be together in a better place inshaAllah.. And meet with the One who loves us the most.. Meet with Rabik we Rabbyy.. Meet with Rabil'alameen..

Ya Rab.. Ostorna fawqa alard wa tahta alard wa yawma al'ard..




"Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees"


~ Sarah Mclachlan ~

Gold said...

:(

Allah yer7amna gamee3an